So after I published my post last night and I was catching up on the blogs I read and there was one that really resonated....it was all about being real and admitting it when you're not ok(Thanks Courtney!) It really made my analyze my post and whether it was really how I felt. On the surface yeah it was what I wanted to put out there I mean who wants to read a blog about someone complaining? But honestly that's what real is sometimes and real life isn't always sunshine.
So this is how I really feel about the store closing. It sucks, it's embarrassing, I hate to give up on it, I wish we had the money to invest in it and hire employees, my family is so much more important to me and I will gladly give up the store if it means staying in our house and feeding our family, struggling with financial issues SUCKS but I'm learning it's part of our lives right now, I've met so many great people through the store that I hope they don't just disappear or think I'm a stalker for trying to contact them, a little part of me really hope that the store becomes something great after I leave, it melts my heart when my son tells me I can have some of the money in his piggy bank so I can keep the store......so that's how I'm feeling about it....for real.